Its almost half way through our second semester now, and as crazy as this semester has been, I have to admit I am enjoying it and here is why. Head start is a place I can go and feel like I'm worth a million bucks. I used to go to daycares and coach this age at gymnastics and I had forgotten how wonderfully sweet and enjoyable that age is! It was a chore that turned out to be rewarding.....shame on me.
I also look forward to clinic and have truly enjoyed my patients. One issue with that though.....is that it seems every pt is a COMP!!! I am sick of hearing about comps, worrying about comps, and seeing pt's treated as comps!! Where is the quality of care when that is all these wonderful pt's have become? I refuse to make a mother who took off work come back if I can help it JUST TO GET A COMP DONE!!! I feel like I should be worrying about how to scale a 5mm pocket on the distal of #1!!!!! This is what i want to accomplish, not freaking out about a quad or denture qualification pt!!!!!!! Somehow this needs to change. Not sure what the answer is. I believe it woulnt be as bad if we had more patients, but i refuse to stress over every pt being a COMP. Every pt should be a learning experience, not a box checked off the list :). BUT ON A BRIGHTER NOTE,
I have noticed more and more that the knowledge I have been aquiring since August of last year is slowly but surely coming together. It seems to .....make sense, correlate, blend, and build on itself. I realize all the time that I HAVE learned a lot and its becomming useful!!!! What I have retained in my crazy mind is finally being used!!! This is exciting to me. I feel...., i dont know, ......EDUCATED!!! :) Except for perio, .......I could have studied another 18 hours and still have missed those questions on the midterm!!!! URG! so frustrating! I of course do not have a masters in biology or immunity. How does an A student get a C on a test that she studied 18 hours for!!!!!!??????
